Sad Days

The past few days have been very very depressing. Even writing this is difficult without tearing. How do you standby and see the person you care about suffer? How do you encourage someone when you yourself cannot be encouraged? How do you say it is going to be o.k when you can't even convince yourself? How do you stay strong when when you're hurting inside?

Fei Fei, I don't want to say goodbye. I am not ready to say goodbye. Dear God, please don't take Fei Fei, please...please....