It still hurts

This blog has been dead for a while. I've just not been inspired to write since Noe moved on. Got a message sometime back that it is time for me to move on and let her rest in peace. But why do I still cry when I think of her? Why is it so difficult? Time heals? Nearly 5 months and it still hurts.

Goodbye Noeline

Dearest Noe,

God has a plan and time for everything. I am so sad that He has decided to take you home today. It hurts just to think about it and even writing this doesn't seem real. But I know you are in a better place and I know you are rejoicing in heaven. Now I look forward to you greeting me when it is my turn. Thank you for being the big sister I never had. Thank you for always being so considerate and thank you for being you. I miss you so much. Till we meet again, watch over me and whack me whenever stray from our Heavenly Father.

I love you but I know He loves you more.

Love,
Elmo's owner

Tomorrow has never been promised but today is full of promises

This testimony by Christopher Yuan reminds us that nothing is impossible with God if we allow Him to work His purpose. In every circumstance, God is at work. It is whether we choose to see His blessings or wallow in self pity and anger.

Sad Days

The past few days have been very very depressing. Even writing this is difficult without tearing. How do you standby and see the person you care about suffer? How do you encourage someone when you yourself cannot be encouraged? How do you say it is going to be o.k when you can't even convince yourself? How do you stay strong when when you're hurting inside?

Fei Fei, I don't want to say goodbye. I am not ready to say goodbye. Dear God, please don't take Fei Fei, please...please....

Better

I've been hearing this song so many times on the radio but could not figure out who sang the song. Finally found out that it's the new Boyzone song. I find the lyrics so meaningful. Totally describes how a relationship should grow.

Our love has changed
It’s not the same
And the only way to say it
is say it.. it’s better

I can’t conceal
This way I feel
For all the times we spend together
Forever just gets better

Seem what I’m try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
With you here it’s better

I stand by you
If you stand by me
I think it’s time that I reveal it
Cause I believe it
It’s better

Seem what I’m try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
If you’re here it’s better



Here's the link to the "controversial" video

This Blog Is Not Dead

It has been ages since my last blog. I have to confess that even I have not been visiting my own blog for the past few months. Things have been rather crazy as usual. Trying to rush the new house renovation further adds to lack of time. For now the move in date has been pushed to August and we are still praying very hard that it will be possible.

Anyway, this is just a short post saying that I'm still alive, the blog is still alive (although it is most likely on life support now :) ) and cutie Elmo is still alive. Here's a picture of the cutie pie at 1 1/2.

He lives.

It is Easter tomorrow. He died so that we may live and He is risen so that we have hope. Blessed Easter.

It Doesn't Matter

I've not blogged for ages but here's a short one especially for Noe!!

It doesn't matter what the scan says, it doesn't matter what the blood test says. At the end of the day God created you and He knows you better than any scan or test can show. I trust and believe the fact that you are eating like an oink oink, just like me, and you are looking as healthy as the next person, albeit a little "cuter", you are well and He will continue to keep you well. He has a plan to show His miracles through you. So keep on eating and know that we are all there to support you through prayer, presence and food :)

Love you big time and I'm holding on to your promise!!! Keep on eating, my dear compatriot in conspicuous food consumption :)

Elmo's Song

If my cutie Elmo could sing, I bet that he'll sound exactly like this. Super cute!!



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Pictures of Elmo

Recently I've been trying to cleanup my pc because of my switch to my lovely macbook ( I totally love the MAC) and I found these pictures of Elmo. He's just the cutest cheeky dog ever.



Baby Elmo, when we first brought him home



He looked so much like a soft toy, don't you think.



Baby Elmo sleeping in his new room.



Elmo showing his cheeky side



Elmo at four months



"I love sticking my head into pails...but I'm afraid of carton boxes. All my daddy's fault!!"



"My first proper mug shot. Check out how big my head is."

Meaning of Life 2

I'm in this melancholic mood again. Yesterday I was reading a blog about this young guy who died suddenly in his sleep. He was only 23. He maintained a blog and after his passing one of his siblings wrote a lovely eulogy about him. What occurred to me was that even thought this person was so young, he managed to do so much to impact those around him. From his blog, I gathered that not only was he a faithful follower of Chirst but he was also active in giving back to society.

The entire night I couldn't sleep and I started thinking again about the meaning of life. More specifically the meaning of my life. What is my purpose in this world. What can I do to bring more meaning to this life of mine in this world? Am I just living one day at the time eagerly anticipating the day when My Lord decides to call me home? What do I have to live for? Day in and day out we live each day looking ahead to the next. The next pay cheque, the next holiday, the next meal, the next birthday, the next new year etc. But what does it amount to? So what? What's next? So what if I've more money, so what if I have a bigger house? So what? I asked Hubbs this question and he too didn't have an answer as to how his life is making an impact in this world.

While writing this, I'm reminded of the Sunday School lesson I taught a while back. God made all of us in His image and for His purpose. Dear God, what is Your purpose for me in this world? I believe that You have a purpose for me if not I would not have been born. Please show me what is it You want me to do in this short time here on earth so that when I am called home according to Your perfect timing, You will be there greeting me, with open arms saying, "Good job, well done!".

Happy Target

I saw this when I was on the way home one day. Of late there have been quite a few "energy enhancement" remedies being advertised all around residential areas but I must say this advertisement certainly conveys the message very clearly. It doesn't take one to understand the written language very well to know what they are selling. So to me that's one effective creative advert.

All you need to do is to stare at the targets and the respective arrows to figure it out. For the benefit of those innocent minds, it's solely for men and "sebelum" = before "selepas" = after. But you knew that right? :)

Marriage Fights

I guess when you've been married for a while, it doesn't take much to start a fight. Take for example some of the "asking for it" fights below :



After retiring, I went to the Social Security office to
apply for Social Security. The woman behind the counter asked me for
my driver's license to verify my age. I looked in my pockets and
realized I had left my wallet at home. I told the woman that I was
very sorry, but I would have to go home and come back later.

The woman said, 'Unbutton your shirt'. So I opened
my shirt revealing my curly silver hair. She said, 'That silver hair
on your chest is proof enough for me' and she processed my Social
Security application.

When I got home, I excitedly told my wife about my
experience at the Social Security office.

She said, 'You should have dropped your pants. You
might have gotten disability, too.'

And then the fight started...




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My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school
reunion, and I kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as
she sat alone at a nearby table.

My wife asked, 'Do you know her?'

'Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old girlfriend.
I understand she took to drinking right after we split up those many
years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober since.'

'My God!' says my wife, 'who would think a person could go on
celebrating that long?'

And then the fight started...




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I took my wife to a restaurant. The waiter, for some
reason, took my order first.

"I'll have the strip steak, medium rare,
please."

He said, "Aren't you worried about the mad
cow?""

Nah, she can order for herself."

And then the fight started...

Anniversary

Yup today hubbs and I are celebrating our 4 years anniversary. Four years of wedded bliss? That's the million pound question. The funny thing is that this is the first time in 4 years since we've been married that we are actually in the same country. So the plan was to squeeze in time for dinner at this place I've been wanting to go for a while. But unfortunately all plans fell apart. So here I am blogging after having cornflakes for dinner. Oh well, the story of my life. I guess I should have seen it coming. Yesterday was no better.

Anyway, thanks to all who remembered and wished us. It has been an interesting 4 years.

New toy!!

Happy New Year to all. I've just realised that I've not blogged in 2009 yet. So here's my first post for the new year using my new toy. Yes yes, whatever new year resolution of not buying any new toys for the year has totally gone down the drain.

After much contemplation and back and forth between Mid Valley and Low Yat Plaza, I've finally decided to give into temptation and gotten myself a Macbook. The aluminum casing Macbook. Yes, I've moved to the Mac side of things. A few years back I remember telling Hubbs that it would take a really silly person to spend so much money for a Mac just because it looks cool when one can get much higher specs on a PC at fraction of the cost. So now I'm eating my words. Why did I decide to get one? Well, like my good friend's husband said on why he got a Mac "Want to look cool cannot meh?" (by the way his mac is still collecting dust and he has switched back to PC :)). Nevertheless, I'm determined not to let my Macbook end up like his.

So the plan so far is to use my windows laptop for work and the Macbook for fun and for Sunday School, of course :) I got the 2.0MHz and 160GB hard disk version but upgraded to 4GB ram. The 2.4Mhz version with 250GB hard disk and lighted keypad was RM1000 more expensive and I figured that I should be able to live with the lower version. After 1 day of use, I won't go as far to say that I wish I switched earlier but I have to agree that doing things on the Mac, such as uploading photos, installing software and the startup and shutdown seems faster and much easier. I totally love the LED display though there's a possibility that the headache I'm experiencing now could be due to the brightness of the screen. As for the keyboard, it took awhile getting used to because the keys are spaced about 3mm apart from the usual keyboard keys on the normal pcs. But it is quite a joy to type on once you get used to it. What irks me a little is that the keyboard doesn't have a separate backspace and delete key. There's only one delete key which functions as a backspace key. The other thing is that it doesn't have an "end" key which I find can be quite a pain when blogging. On top of that the Mac can't fully sync with my Palm Treo Pro which runs on WM6.1 Apparently I've to purchase a separate software "Missing Sync" which cost RM200+ to overcome this. But for the time being I'm putting that on hold. Other than that, I have to say that so far I'm quite happy with the switch. Let's see how it goes after a week of playing around with it. Nevertheless there is certainly no doubting the "cool" factor.

Here are a few shots I took of the box and the machine.




Gotta really give it to the people at apple. Even the package looks sleek.












Even the power cord looks cool and compact.




How much sleeker can a laptop get?? I totally love the apple logo that lights up when in use.




The spaced out keyboard and super bright screen.